February 22, 2013

red deer maternity photographer ➾ 30 weeks ➾ weekly pregnancy photo journal

This was a tough, tough week…..My mom flew up from BC to be with us for this appointment, which I am so thankful for.

Our appointment on Wednesday was less than stellar. We found out that, while the fluid that was around his lungs dissipated on the right side, it doubled on the left, perplexing the doctors. They have no idea whats going on or why this is happening. At this time all we can do is wait until next week to see how the progress goes and where we need to go from there. We were informed that if the pleural effusion gets worse that we will have to fly to Toronto in the next few weeks to have a drain put in the baby’s chest wall to release some of the pressure on the other organs. They would also recommend doing an amniocentesis to see if we can figure out if the two issues are related. The doctor also said a few words that crumbled me…..”the amnio will let us know what kind of care we should be doing after birth…aggressive surgeries or palliative care” — the palliative care part didn’t really click in for me until I saw my mom and Lucas break down. “So you mean, just wait until my baby dies??” The rest of the conversation was a haze, I don’t remember much….

After we left the clinic, I decided I needed to take a break from reality and went for lunch at a nearby Earls, during the lunch rush….bad idea….we all just sat there, staring off in the distance with tears in our eyes. I couldn’t even look at Lucas without breaking down. I could see the pain and fear all over his face. We managed to eat a little and then hit the road back to Red Deer. As we were about to hit Deerfoot Trail I saw a pigeon over head trying to fly into the wind, struggling and almost hovering in one spot…for some reason that was it…..I lost it, I thought about even if our baby were to make it that there was going to be such a tough road at the beginning, fighting for it’s life, almost like flying into the wind.

Thursday was such a blur…thank goodness my mom was here or I would have just laid in bed all day depressed. I didn’t want to do anything. I feel like I can’t get excited for the birth because of everything that will happen once the baby is out. It’s safe inside and thats where I want it to stay….I will hold dear these last few months.

this was what my Thursday looked like…

Friday my mom, Jensen and I drove to Salmon Arm so I could visit my Papa who has just been diagnosed with Cancer….again. My grandma (breast cancer), mom(breast cancer) and Papa(esophageal Cancer) are all survivors. We are fighters. We don’t quit. That, and that alone gives me so much hope that this little baby will be just as strong as the rest of our family.

While in BC,  I started to prepare myself to go to Toronto and to have multiple needles shoved into my stomach….but I started to feel better, the baby is moving around like crazy and I am enjoying this time more than ever. We even went out for a walk on the beach to look for driftwood to put up in the nursery. I made a little cloud mobile that I will be hanging from it :)

A few Instagram photos from our BC weekend…

Jensen playing the piano that I learned on as a child…

30 weeks!…..

Chilly, windy snuggles on the beach

Thanks for the gloves Grandma!

The driftwood we found at the beach waiting to be hung

SHARE
Cristina Alt 11:26 February 22, 2013 Reply
Keeping you and your baby in my thoughts... I hope things turn around for you in the next few weeks!
Sophie 11:32 February 22, 2013 Reply
I enjoy following you on FB and IG. Just wanted to say that I so admire your outlook, and am praying for your sweet little bundle. I am always inspired by your work, and am increasingly inspired by your life, as well. Don't give up hope. xo
Brianbe 12:10 February 22, 2013 Reply
I love you jaminson!
Sarah G 12:31 February 22, 2013 Reply
So much love your way, be strong. Xoxo
Mae Taylor 12:56 February 22, 2013 Reply
Thinking of you and praying for you. With lots of love and hope! xoxo
Nicole Gravatt 13:11 February 22, 2013 Reply
Praying for your family. If we have Anything we have faith and hope.
Jennifer Swenson 13:43 February 22, 2013 Reply
Sending lots of hugs and prayers your way. My heart breaks for you that you are having to go through this. Xo
Jenny Mckinney 13:53 February 22, 2013 Reply
Honey, I am thinking about you so much ! Such a difficult time being smack in the middle of the scariest unknown. Miracles happen. I know that for a fact ~ I will pray for your baby and your family. Sending you love <3
Angeline 16:20 February 22, 2013 Reply
Never give up hope, for without it we have nothing. Sending prayers your way for you and your wee little miracle.
Amanda Lachapelle 17:52 February 22, 2013 Reply
Wishing you and your bub positive thoughts of health. No matter how hard the fight you said it yourself - you are surrounded by fighters that will help walk you through it. You also belong to an amazingly supportive community of photographers that are here for you and praying for you and your babe. PS on a lighter note - those little teasers of the nursery are gorgeous :)
Kaycee 20:23 February 22, 2013 Reply
With hope, hope, hope. xoxo
Amy 16:03 February 26, 2013 Reply
My thoughts and prayers are with you. When I was pregnant with my little girl she was found to have a rare and serious heart condition. We planned and arranged and made contingency plans... And I prayed. The minute she came into the world we had a full NICU team in the room as planned. And after they examined her fully there was absolutely no sign of the problem that had been there for the 12 weeks before. Miracles happen - have faith. You are in my prayers. Xo Amy
Amy 16:03 February 26, 2013 Reply
My thoughts and prayers are with you. When I was pregnant with my little girl she was found to have a rare and serious heart condition. We planned and arranged and made contingency plans... And I prayed. The minute she came into the world we had a full NICU team in the room as planned. And after they examined her fully there was absolutely no sign of the problem that had been there for the 12 weeks before. Miracles happen - have faith. You are in my prayers. Xo Amy

Related Posts
Featured
Jayme’s Craft Corner | Red Deer Concept Photographer
A New Spin on {Photo} Frames The other night, I decided I was going to start and COMPLETE something for a change. I usually get to about 90% finished, and realize i've forgotten one key item, an item that is easily found just never remembered. So there it will sit, 90% complete. Having a 2 year old does not help either...as I type this he is crawling on my lap trying help...cute yes, but difficult trying to type when your son is literally hanging off your arm. I even said to my husband last night, as I was admiring my project, "Babe, I actually completed something today....like really finished it, AND photographed, uploaded AND edited photos ...
READ MORE
Classic Tattoo | Red Deer Finest | Red Deer Commercial Portrait Photographer
After being with my husband for over 3 1/2 years, we finally set up a date to take some photos of his shop, Classic Tattoo! Expert Tattooing at its finest in Red Deer, Alberta Canada, check them out! { classictattoo.ca }   Boss Man/ Tattooer: Lucas Ford Miss Jessie Beans Ryan Gagne This is the shot he wanted me to use.... Lee Brooker Our shop manager Kelsea! Doing our best to recreate the old time tattoo photographs from the early 1900's Crew.
READ MORE
2015 rocky Mountain session | rocky mountain family photographer
A cool summer breeze, the freshest air in the whole world, playing in the mountain creeks, climbing trees, being together with your family and nature.... I am now accepting bookings for my summer 2015 Rocky Mountain Sessions! These sessions hold such a special place in my heart and I have never been so inspired as I am when i'm in the mountains...I can't wait to shoot there again this summer and because of that I am holding a special promotion until Feb 14th! (*wink wink* to all that want to give their significant others something special for Valentines this year ;)) I have a ton of new locations and looking forward to telling the stori ...
READ MORE